1- My best friends are.
2- What I hate most about myself.
3- What I love most about myself.
4- What I’m really good at.
5- What I’m really bad at.
6- Biggest turn ons.
7- Biggest turn offs.
8- What I want to be when I get older.
9- My relationship with my sibling(s).
10- My relationship with my parents.
11- My idea of a perfect date.
12- My biggest pet peeves.
13- A description of the boy I like.
14- A description of the person I dislike the most.
15- A reason I’ve lied to a friend.
16- Where I have lived before.
17- A description of the family I want to have when I’m older.
18- What my greatest achievements are.
19- What I hate the most about school.
20- How my last kiss when down.
21- Most embarrassing moment.
22- What my last text message says.
23- What words upset me the most.
24- What words make me the best about myself.
25- A description of my self-esteem.
26- A description of my best friend.
27- The reason behind my last break up.
28- My favourite songs right now.
29- A wish that I’ve wished for repeatedly on 11:11.
30- An internal conflict I have with myself.
31- The meanest thing anyone has ever said to me.
32- The sweetest thing anyone has ever said to me.

stopandsmelltheflowerss:

This weekend, I did something really messed up. I’m not supposed to talk about it, but let’s just say that I 100% wish life has a rewind button. I know that tomorrow when I go to school I’ll be facing the loss of most of my friends along with the threats I have received and will receive. I know I’ll get them, I deserve them. I fucked up. But now it’s time to move on. I can only learn from this experience.

But the scariest part of all of this is the fact that my parents think my best friend isn’t good for me. Little do they know, she has helped me more than any other person. I’m almost positive that without her, I wouldn’t be as content with life as I am. I can’t say I’m happy because I’m not. But she has improved my life tremendously. I starved myself before I met her; she helped me get over that even though she probably doesn’t realize it. She reached out to me. I had a friend when everyone else left me. She and I are and will be best friends no matter what happens. We’re able to give each other advice and even when we piss each other off and stop talking we know that in twenty minutes if someone’s an asshole we can skype or text or talk on the phone about it. She’s the one who convinced me to stay in California for college, think about that Dad. It was Victoria. Without her I would be such a wreck. I know that in any emergency she would get her butt over to help me. I almost killed myself. But I didn’t. Why? Because I knew that even if it didn’t affect other people at all, it would affect her. She’s proven to me that she cares when no one else does. For that, I am forever grateful.  I love you so much Victoria. <3

&I’m not supposed to be on the computer or posting anything, but I’m willing to take that risk for you. So shhh (;

I just fucking started crying.. holy shit… i love you girl. But i think your dad is just the one whos pissed.. ugh this friggin blows. Regardless, i love you too. You’ve saved me from so much shit and helped me with everything. like you said, shit would be way worse without you. Maybe we can’t exactly talk right now or hang out but our friendship is 100% stronger than that, just remember that. I’m always here for you whether it be at 2 in the morning or 5 at night, it doesn’t matter. I’m there for you girl, always and always. thank you for this.. these past 2 days have been so shitty. FUCK, i need to talk to you already, damnit.